Well With My Soul by Gregory G. Allen

Author:Gregory G. Allen [Allen, Gregory G.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: ASD Publishing
Published: 2011-09-29T05:00:00+00:00

NEW YORK, 1982

CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO

JACOB

I was slowly growing more and more bored with my day to day life. I needed a challenge again, something to fulfill me. While my life was changing quickly with my new friends from the church, there was nothing for me to do by way of a job. I knew the entertainment world was a place I needed to stay away from. My days in those venues had come to a close. So it seemed as if I had to create a job — something I felt I could do better than anyone else, something new to master and conquer.

I would spend most of my time meeting with Bill and discussing religion. I found it easy, since Mama had versed us on the Bible for so many years growing up. While I looked up to Bill, at times I believed I knew more than he did about what he was preaching. Sure, he had his own past that he could draw on when talking to others, but his story was nowhere as radical as mine. He hadn’t lived with the sinners of this city like me. I thought he could use me in his church in a much deeper way.

I had been praying about what God wanted me to do with my life and I knew that He meant for me to climb mountains. Going after something that was difficult and accomplishing it was what I was good at. And now God expected those same large cojones from me as I planned for this next endeavor. Finally, I figured out what it was I was supposed to do.

I thought of who I wanted to share this news with and the only person that I came up with was Rachel. It had been a while since I told her about the breakup with Gary and we weren’t talking much any longer. But today, I needed to see her face-to-face to describe what God had in store for my life.

“Thanks for coming, Rachel,” I said, as I greeted her at my front door.

“I’ve missed you, Jake. Life is very different without you,” she said, grabbing me with those small arms of hers.

“I’ve missed you too … hearing that voice of yours.”

“You can call anytime, you know,” she said.

“Please, sit down,” I said.

I noticed Rachel looking around the apartment at the photos of me and Gary that I had never taken down. I hadn’t even thought about that prior to seeing her face now. I just found comfort in keeping them up and no one needed to see it. The crackle and pops from the wood in the fireplace filled the gaps in our conversation.

“There is so much happening to me and I want you to be there,” I said.

“I understand … we’ve gone through so much, Jake.”

“Rachel. How did you grow up? Religion-wise.”

“Catholic. When I wasn’t on an army base, I was in Catholic school. The little dress and everything,” she said.

“Why have you given up on God?”

“I didn’t really give up.

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